black n white

"Remember, a smile is the best makeup you can wear."

...simply just didn't have the best day. Eating ice cream out of the box is nice but...it's not the same as when you do it on a good day.
So much going on. At the same time nothing is happening.

I keep seeing things in black and white, but what haven't revealed it's colors...
I just hope it's not black.
It will make me sad.
If it is I have to let go of it.
It's too bad, I like it, I don't want it to be soiled with dripping pitch black.
But if it is, as I suspect,
I will have to say my goodbyes.
I wish for it not to be so.
Please,
let me be wrong....


Still being me. Still be myself.
Finding it. Keeping it.
Be a princess.
Be me the way I'm supposed to be.
I guess that's not going to happen until the day my heart heals.